Heya,
well i feel like writing about university.
im 16 and im in uni. it sounds weird. i mean the average age is 18 to be in uni here but i got in early? i guess...i dont think im so intelligent, i still hate studying, even though i do it alot. I just am very ambitious that i guess i got this far.
I love debating, being an honor student and being well..known? i guess i sound shallow because im admitting i like the attention but at times yes i get it, but i work hard for it. its not easy being a go-getter all the time coz in a way everyone starts viewing you as a person who doesnt need help and have maybe over expectations.
i wrote a song called "my perfect world"
the lines...
'you see me as someone else high above the layers that lie underneath...'
and 'please god help me find myself, teach me how to be a better me coz im dying with this older version of me'
i wrote this song, coz the pressures are sometimes high, i do tend to stretch myself thin but i enjoy all of the things i get into however i just dont know how to be "normal" at times of course normal is no such things..but i cant help feeling different? i know i must sound like many other people but i do know...im not like any girl you know. im complicated. a little confused. mature. interested in the wonders of the world and so involved with life. i believe not even a second should be wasted, coz u never know what you got til its gone.
So yes im smart? i got into college, i study most nights and spend alldayers at the uni library dancing in between shelves with my ipod. i could be a party girl, like i do love parties and my family..well we're all party animals..but i dont go out much. i drink sometimes but not all the time and i can hold my drink. my friends are mostly guys and its not a sexist thing i just get along better with them or something. i have only 2 true girl friends. but im friendly to everyone and im not too picky with friends only when it comes to getting 'close'. i dont like people judging other people or me or anything they dont truly know about because how can you truly judge something you dont know all the sides of? how can you say that just because someone does something that he/she thinks this way? Hmmm...
well its 12.39 i have class at 2. Sociology. Ahh sociology. i love that class. our teacher is somewhat modern and does NOT follow the book, hes amazing teacher who loves discussing our opinions and opening our eyes to other perspectives, he drives us all crazy with his debates but in the end i know he knows he got us all thinking and in that way i think hes a good teacher. We're currently discussing the self and the different views on it through structuralism, neoevolutionism and marxism. Its a very interesting class. I love writing essays.
Oh yes, my course is a double degree - Bachelor of Business & Bachelor of Journalism.
I'm a full time student. I dont really know sometimes what im actually good at, but my favorite classes incluse music composition 12(was an extra elective) and also i love sociology and communication 15.
Lol no one reads this but i feel somewhat better letting this out.
I dont know how to make others understand.
but im not perfect, and like they say no one is...my life looks perfect and in a way it is because im contented but everyone has problems and insecurities.
i just dont know why i should be judged because of my age, age is just a number, its the experiences and thought patterns that can mature a person.
i may not have gone through as tough things as others, but i have secrets too.
lets just say i know what its like to lie in a hospital bed for days at a time fearing whats going to happen next.
hmm..
i moved to the philippines when i was 12, im nearly 17 and i dont think its fair that some people may think im too young or not ready to be in college.
So yeah, theres a piece of my mind. lol
Lariana >>>

yep i look young, but i do look my age, i dont need to look the same age as my mind? haha talk about boastful! jokes =p
Lariana 2 >>>

this is a picture of my older sister on her wedding day, my mum and i =)